Idols

you must have some inspiring people in your life, aren't you?
yeah, someone who can motivated you, who make you feel exited, or should i say it as an Idol.
you have one? good. but it's not about yours, it's about mine. because it's my blog so everything is mine HAHA

oke, let's start.
for note ; i'm not sort by i like the most, it's just randomly sorted.

voila..
have you ever heard "JACKSGAP" ? yeah, they are the owner of it. the twins Jack Harries and Finn Harries.
what is JACKSGAP ?
JACKSGAP is a youtube chanel of theirs. they share about their life on there. i love the way they shared, it's funy. they're look like loving each other so much. they inspiring me to proud of my life as it is. owh i wish i had a twin brother *SIGH*

so.. who doesn't know him ? you don't know?
poor you.
my beloved imaginary boyfriend, Raditya Dika.
writer, actor, director, author, entrepreneur, stand up comedian. yes, it's all his job.
what a success man, uh ?
started from blog author, become a successful man who has 5 famous books and 2 movies, created by himself. cool? it's INCREDIBLE!!
why did i loved him?
check his timeline, read his books, watch his films. then you'll know why.

owhh my goddddd
I-HAVE-TO-BREATHE. OH-WHY-ARE-THEY-SO-FUCKING-CUTE. I-AM-BREATHLESS-OHHH

uhmm, i'm sorry, i always fangirling everytime i look at them, at my gorgeous princes, One Direction.
they're so cute, they're so cool, they're amazing, they have voice like an angel, they're handsome, they're funny, they're love each other not for a bussiness or just for formality. they're loving each other as brothers, they're sweet as a family. and the most importantly, they're proud of their love to their mom:)
and i love them so much xx

okay i think you still feel unfamiliar about this woman.
she is Anizabella Lesmana, mix-blood of Indonesian-Dutch.
she is emerging artist. but i'm not love her as a artist, i love her as a blog author. her blog is so inspiring me, she's like a mind-reader of mine. she write everything what i feel and give me solution without i asked. i regard her as my spiritual teacher.
i wish i could make a friend with her, that's must be so fun!

so if you don't know this woman, i think you live in remote vilages.
JK Rowling, the author of Harry Potter's world.
i wonder how this woman could creating a briliant masterpiece. what an imaginative woman!
i think no need to elaborate for this one, everyone know her greatness already.

note :
dear Mrs. Rowling, thankyou verry much, you had been make my wonderfull chilhood with your masterpiece. if you read this, i would verry delight  if you willing to follow me at twitter or appreciate this blog, or you may give me one of those your books collection, or invite me for a dinner. (oh forget it. she don't even know my exist)

and the last one..
the most inspiring woman of mine. my queen, my guard, my love, my precious, my everything, my mom.
isn't she lovely ? of course she is
this women has been keeping me with love in 17 years. and i want it longer.
very strong woman, she is not perfect but make my life perfect.
nothing compares to a love of mother.
thanks mom, for everything you give to me, daddy, and my sister and brother. i love you so much:*

they are the idols of mine

so, what 'bout yours ?

xx

Realistic and Unrealistic Dream

i'm a deamer i have tons of dream, i have tons of interest, and somehow, it scares me. i think about things a lot of fantasizing. somehow, it can be absurd or can be not. but i love dream and of course, make it come true.

My realistic dream is to be a writer. a bussiness woman. a tacher. a good wife and a good mom. become a strong independent women who living happily and spread happiness to other people, especialy my parents.

My unrealistic dream is to stay young forever. become a florist. and owns a nice garden in my backyard. who owns a tame tiger and a parrot, surrounded by love. to own a unicorn. to own a humongous library filled with thousands great books. to wear a different fancy dress everyday. to travel the world using a minivan. to live in tree house. to live in narnia.

isn't it a cool dream ? no doubt i am a great dreamer i guess.

so people, what's your dream ? don't be afraid to dream. sometime deaming would make you feel better. just dream ! and make it real in your own way:)

happy dreaming!

xx

dull day

it's 14:54 now
the time when you can see the gold sun, when you feel thirsty everytime, the time when you feel solitude.
the time when you want to have someone to talk to.
is it just me or today were so dull. i wondering what people are doing, all over the world.
and me? i just lying in my bed, listen to the same music all around the day, blabbering on this blog. how ironic, uh ?

i miss those day when i woke up early, take a bath when dew has not dropped yet, eat my breakfast in the class, make a lots laughters with all those people. i think i miss someplace called School.
i wish i could make a cuddle with my bestfriends now. tell some stupid stories, make a loud giggle.

humph..

these dull day make me so weak.
my day feel so awfull, awkward, mentionless, clueless, everything was collorless. well i guess i better stop blabbering and grounching here. no good.
i would feel better when i get my daily cafeine.
thankyou and good evening.
take a good care of yourself people!

gotta go shower

and

stumble upon the day!

Super Moodboster

This is things that never fail to make me feel better, or should i call it ; Super Moodboster. so blogwalkers, take your pen and note then save this as a record!. make sure you didn't miss anything!

1. Talking to my bestfriends

2. Laughters

3. Money

4. Internet

5. One Direction

6. do it all and repeat it :)

xx

Q & A : Much of One Direction

mari kita lakukan sedikit interview mengenai pria pria tampan yang tidak lain tidak bukan adalah pacar pacar gua mwehehehe:3

so... this is it *drum role*

the greatest group band ever, One Direction

aren't they cute? :)

okay, let's start the question tme.

1. Who is your favorite member ?

okay, i hate this first question wich always asking me the favoritest of mine. oh, come on i am a directioner not a directionator, so i can't pick one. let me tell you, I AM A DIRECTIONER. sometime i fell in love with Zayn, sometime it supposed to be Harry, occasionaly it was Louis, or Liam, and i'm crushing at Niall periodically.

2.  What is your favorite song from each of the boys’s albums?

Up All Night :  Moment, What makes you beatiful, One thing, More than this, Taken, Gotta be you, Up all night

Take Me Home : Little things, Live while we're young, Last first kiss, Heart attack, she's not afraid, cmon cmon, Loved you first, Back for you, Kiss you, Irresestible

unreleased : I shoud've kissed you, Magic, Nobody compares to you, Stand up 

  

3. Have any of the boys’s songs made you cry/tear up before? 

 Little Things have made me broke down on tears once. that song just too sweet.

4. Is there one song of the boys’s that you have a connection with?

 LITTLE THINGS. GOTTA BE YOU. THERE IS TOO MANY SONGS THAT I CAN RELATE TO!

5. Do you argue to defend the boys when people bring them up & badmouth them? 

yes i do, i'll defend them till the end. i'm a potective fan.

6. Do you like the boys’s style from 2010, 2011, 2012, or now better? 

 well they looks much nicer with their 2012 look, i love that bald headed of Liams and zayn's quiff is so adorable. but yet they looks is still mesmerizing i guess, nothing can make me love them less.

7. If you had one of the boys to marry you, who it's gotta be ?

now this one is tricky, i cant decide who it's gotta be. they have their own greatness, but if i have to. it would probably Liam, it's gotta be Liam:)

8. Your view about their girlfriend ?

well i respect all of them. especially ellounor, i ship them forever. as long as my boys happy with them i would be happy too. even though Ms. Swift had once gotten on my nerves, literally.

9. If you had the chance to dating the boys for one day, what would you do?

 at first i would like to having breakfast with niall at Nando's, tell some joke, playing guitar, change some lyric, ohh there will be a lots of laugthers. after that i wanted to hang out with Louis, looking for some outfits and nice stuffs, shopping, and enjoy a cup of cold milkshake with him. and then i'd love to cooking for luch with harry, make some fun conversation, touching his dimpples, playing with his curly, owh god. and the next i would ask Liam to take the air with me and Loki, we would play romp, hide and seek, bicycling, we will having much fun. and before we go home, me and liam devoured a cup of ice cream, by use a fork:) . Zayn would be the finale here, we would love to do a candle light dinner, dancing under the moonlight, look at his eyes and tell how much i love him, and he looking me back then said "i love you more, as much as i love my family" and make a friendly cuddle at last. aww THAT WOULD BE THE BEST DATE IN MY LIFE. if just i'm not imagining too much :''''''D

 10. Write a message to the boys!

hey boys!!

i just wanted you to know, to be a directioner is changed my life in so many different ways. i have love you since i don't know when. you just suddenly come and stole my heart, can i get it back please? or may be no. i love Mr. Tomlinson's randomness, i love Mr. Styles's charmness, i love the innocence of Mr. Horan, and i love Mr. Payne the wise as much as i love the vain of Mr. Malik. i love you all no matter what. you are trully madly crazy seriously totaly completely awesome!! thanks for your presence.

kiss and hug from me

love you. 

Month of war.

hhhhmmmmppphhh ahhhh...
bau ini, bau bulan juni yang sengit. bau.. peperangan, ya PERANG ! *drum role*

pagi ini bahkan gua bangun dengan keadaan tempat tidur yang kacau, semua bantal berjatuhan dibawahh. Ehm.. oke, itu biasa. tapi ini serius. bulan juni ini akan begitu banyak pertumpahan darah. ada 3 medan yang harus gua lewati hari ini. bukan, bukan medan yang di sumatera utara itu.
ini adalah medan tempur. MEDAN TEMPUR. MEDAN TEMPUR. jelas?

ujian SBMPTN 2 hari, dan UJIAN poltekkes. dan beberapa ujian lainnya.
iya, itu memang mengerikan. nampaknya bulan juni akan penuh gejolak buat gua. gua harus secepatnya pasang strategi, siapkan amunisi, dan beberapa bekal.
for i know, this june is "Month of War" not a "Month of Lose"


by the way, today i woke up with alarm blustering on my face. i wouldn't hate my alarm clock so much if it woke me up with the smell of coffee and freshly baked bread.

humph..

i guess it's time to get some relax with a cup of hot creamy cino

good morning xx

mellow afternoon with the drizzle in

it is one of those wet nightfalls when i relize that the sun has been sink before i saw the rainbow after drench.

recalling that today has been over just as usual,
that i spent the day with some acoustic songs and lying in my bed, that i could feel the smell of the rain untill it let up, that i still can't see the rainbow for a months even it's rainy weeks.

sitting in terrace, writing this silience. uncertain what i have to do tomorrow, waiting for this obscurity day come to an end. However i did promise my self that i should post about this on my blog someday. Something about yesterday that i found very much bewildering.

for i know, when the world is rotating in same orbit but you didn't feell the same day anymore. i found my self on different soul, i loose the sense of humor, i can't feel that butterfly on my stomack when i see some fiction imagination. i felt transformed into tedious person, even though i do something interest thing like on my chilhood i still can't get that sense, it just.. diferent.


it is quite annoying, just asking to my self what happen to me. wacting cartoon is not interest me anymore, i didn't feel adictive on any games for a long time. yesterday i found my self wacth a business chanel on tv, let my new season manga comic neglected, buying a woman fashion magazine.

Blah

what's going on to me ? i'm feel like a stanger to my self.

am i growing up ? become a woman ? come on, i think it's too fast. i even have just graduated from high school. Moreover, i started comfortably to all of this. owh great! i'm a woman already.

 whatever it is, i hope it will be good.

 writing this feels better

guess it's time for take a bath

good night.