mellow afternoon with the drizzle in

it is one of those wet nightfalls when i relize that the sun has been sink before i saw the rainbow after drench.

recalling that today has been over just as usual,
that i spent the day with some acoustic songs and lying in my bed, that i could feel the smell of the rain untill it let up, that i still can't see the rainbow for a months even it's rainy weeks.

sitting in terrace, writing this silience. uncertain what i have to do tomorrow, waiting for this obscurity day come to an end. However i did promise my self that i should post about this on my blog someday. Something about yesterday that i found very much bewildering.

for i know, when the world is rotating in same orbit but you didn't feell the same day anymore. i found my self on different soul, i loose the sense of humor, i can't feel that butterfly on my stomack when i see some fiction imagination. i felt transformed into tedious person, even though i do something interest thing like on my chilhood i still can't get that sense, it just.. diferent.


it is quite annoying, just asking to my self what happen to me. wacting cartoon is not interest me anymore, i didn't feel adictive on any games for a long time. yesterday i found my self wacth a business chanel on tv, let my new season manga comic neglected, buying a woman fashion magazine.

Blah

what's going on to me ? i'm feel like a stanger to my self.

am i growing up ? become a woman ? come on, i think it's too fast. i even have just graduated from high school. Moreover, i started comfortably to all of this. owh great! i'm a woman already.

 whatever it is, i hope it will be good.

 writing this feels better

guess it's time for take a bath

good night.